Another Persona has Born......but Why and When?

okay, seperti judulnya, ada "another self" yg lahir baru2 ini....

bwt yg ga tau atau masih belum tau..gw punya "alter-ego" atau kepribadian ganda,,sadar atau tidak mereka pernah muncul di antara kalian selama ini..

ok,,bwt "dia" yg baru ini gw bingung kapan lahir, kenapa, en representative dr apa yg ada di diri gw.....

org pertama yg tau "dia" ini agung..yg gw inget gw tidur dr jam stgh 7 gara2 kecapean td subuhnya dah masak+ngepel+nyuci...kompie emg gw sengaja nyalain biar ntar pas bangun tinggal liat2 update....
ini log "gw" ma agung wkt itu,,, soalnya gw sendiri gw tau apa yg terjadi wkt itu...

gunk xi: Agung
Akira Genkaku: gw

gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:08:04 AM): Mau ke kampus jam brp??
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:08:28 AM): lu mo ke kmps gung???gw ga ada urusan lg.....
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:08:38 AM): lu cm mau bayar doang kan??
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:10:11 AM): Iya cuma bayar trus buat spanduk
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:10:26 AM): lu bener2 mau dikerjain ma nak2 miba ya....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:10:28 AM): Jd lo ga kan k kmpus?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:10:33 AM): gw mah ogah dikerjain ky gt.....
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:10:43 AM): ga akan kynya.....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:11:29 AM): Kasian sy,gw cm bntu bkn spanduk
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:11:47 AM): even so,,well,that's kind of you....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:12:27 AM): Yap.
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:14:59 AM): What's wrong with you sy?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:15:11 AM): hmm??apanya??
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:16:31 AM): Entah ya..tampak..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:16:58 AM): hahahaha,,don't worry..it's nothing....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:18:05 AM): Really? Are you Arsy?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:18:25 AM): what do you mean??
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:20:29 AM): Forget it.
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:20:44 AM): .....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:24:33 AM): Ktany kmrn lo mau cerita?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:24:50 AM): ah..iya..ntar aja deh. sorry.....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:28:15 AM): Oh call me again when Arsy back..ok..tell him right ?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:28:41 AM): Arsy??that man already dead long ago......
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:29:14 AM): So who are you?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:29:20 AM): i'm me
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:30:11 AM): Please introducing yourself..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:30:32 AM): Soshyant....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:32:31 AM): I never heard you before..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:33:11 AM): really? but somehow i feel we know each other for a fairly long time.....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:34:55 AM): Oh ya? Gw kok ngerasa asing..kpan kta knalan ya?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:35:18 AM): i don't know either. it just i feel that...
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:36:12 AM): Can you describe yourself.. ?
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:36:31 AM): Maybe I remember
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:37:20 AM): describe? there is nothing i can tell exactly what happened to me....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:37:46 AM): And then?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:39:51 AM): i don't know about myself. it just i feel like i'm still an infant with no knowledge about anything
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:40:38 AM): I get it..maybe you're the new one..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:40:57 AM): new one? what do you mean?
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:45:05 AM): Nothing forget it.. I want talk with arsy please
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:45:42 AM): Arsy? that man already dead long ago.
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:46:01 AM): well, i'm sleepy now, see ya.
gunk xi (7/7/2009 8:59:34 AM): Tes..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 8:59:40 AM): oi...
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:00:01 AM): Uda balik lg?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:00:11 AM): hah? maksudnya??
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:00:46 AM): Cek deh chat sblum nya..show recent..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:00:53 AM): ntar..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:03:17 AM): Soshyant ya....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:03:37 AM): Kok bru dger gw ya?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:03:55 AM): gw jg....
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:04:03 AM): kapan lahirnya ya.....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:04:12 AM): Baru lagi?
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:04:22 AM): dunno,,,kynya sih gt....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:06:23 AM): Lo terlalu neken dri sy..tnpa mau melibatkan org lain..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:06:57 AM): kynya sih...tp gw cm ga mau org lain terlibat masalah gw doang....
gunk xi (7/7/2009 9:07:57 AM): Tp kan kalo gitu trus..bkan ga mgkn mncul terus tkoh bru..
Akira Genkaku (7/7/2009 9:08:33 AM): yg baru ya......kyny gw terlalu maksain diri lg ampe ga meratiin diri sendiri lg.....

Soshyant...another member of this cursed destiny of mine.....kenapa dia lahir en bagian dr apa? gw jg blum tau....tp ngeliat dr bicaranya dia keliatannya dia br lahir.....

well,,emg bener akihr2 ini gw ga bisa ngendaliin diri gw, banyak hal2 yg mesti gw pikirin en keras kepala gw muncul lg,,"ga mau ngelibatin org di sekitar gw dlm masalah gw"....mungkin disana gw salahnya....

well, mulai dr "vision" yg gw liat akhir2 ini,,dimana gw liat gw kehilangan orang yg berharga buat gw lagi,,untuk yg ketiga kalinya,,,kalaupun itu terjadi gw ragu bakal bisa bangkit lagi atau ngga,,,apa yg dah gw dpt en semua resolusi gw selama ini berarti sia2 belaka.....

trus, mimpi agung yg ktnya dia mimpi gw terus berubah2 ampe ngamuk en ga bisa dikendaliin,,,gw mikir klo itu bisa kejadian ma gw,,mengingat kondisi gw sekarang ini...

en,,obat gw yg dah habis,,,gejala "kutukan" yg makin kuat bikin gw nambahin dosis obat gw yg akhirnya bikin obat gw abis sebelum waktunya,,and because of that,,,i can't control myself.....

trus jg,,,mungkin karena gw yg telat nge-sync ma perpindahan fase kemarin,,makanya tubuh gw blum siap ma lingkungan yg baru...

it just,, when i can get full control over this body,,right now i can barely move this broken body,,but it seems that this body will crumble anytime....


Arsy...yah...emg bener kata dia klo orang itu dah mati sejak dulu...sejak Legarm lahir,,atau mungkin sejak Jowy meninggal Arsy juga meninggal,,sekarang nama Arsy itu hanyalah sebuah label untuk tubuh ini,,,,


Need new drive, support, and new soul with it's body to overcome this trial.....